Firefly from HELL

November 30th, 2005

04:41 pm - Roommate bashing
Geez, I haven't written in here for awhile. I guess I must really need to vent. Well what's new. I've transferred form GMU to UDEL. It's been soso. I'm living in an area off campus and there's no social life. So I've put in for a room change. I haven't told my roommate, but I'm not quite sure how. You see, she's probably more than 50% of the reason I want to leave. I'd probably stick it out for the whole year if I living with someone I could connect with. BUT WE CAN'T!!! I CANNOT stand her sometimes. She is a very sweet girl, but annoying like no other! What really gets me is her sleeping habits. She stays up all night (doing nothing!!) and then turns all the lights off during the day and sleeps. I come in from class to a dark quiet room, and she expects me to keep it that way. Ummm...i don't think so. And on the opposite end, when I'm trying to go to sleep she leaves the lights on and acts soooo bothered if I want them off.

Let's see what else...

The girl lives in her own small world. Everything still revolves around her life at home. She never goes out, never tries to meet anyone. She just stays in the room talking to her parents and complaining (Not that I should say that since I'm complaining now). So what does this mean for me? It means no alone time ever! I can never just sit in my room and do what i want: relax, listen to music, play a game w/o having to wear headphones. And she ALWAYS has the remote. Why? b/c her life here is watching TV and sitting at her computer. I CAN'T TAKE IT!!!

I spend as much time out of the room as possible, but inevitably I must return to it. I cannot wait to move.

wow~~~ that felt so good to say. Now I feel like a childish, immature bitch....but at least I finally said how INSANE this roommate is driving me.
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September 28th, 2005

09:53 pm
I'm already married~

May 11th, 2005

09:13 pm
I just needed to stop and vent for a minute to the computer b/c I know that it will just listen. I'm feelin' quite stressed and it's causing me some baaad writer's block, which isn't cool when you need to write your History final exam paper. Lately a lot seems to be changing, and I feel like nothing is secure. It is not definite whether I'll still be at Mason next year. I mean, I don't want to be. There is so much here though that I have to say good bye to. Then I need to start all over somewhere else. What if it's worse? I just don't want to transfer again. I just want to put my mind at ease. I want to feel like I'm in the right place, both physically and mentally. I know I am whining, as many tend to do on livejournal, and that you shouldn't whine, tough it up. But I'm only doing this to make the pit in my stomach go away. Writing, particularly in livejournal, tends to make me feel better when I am down. Just a little. I feel like I can get my thoughts out and people are listening, but they don't have to feel obligated to respond, ya know? I don't want someone's advice. I just wanted a listener. I have this pit b/c I just received some slightly bad news, which I cannot admit to you b/c I'm trying not to admit it to myself. I mean, I has to do with college, so you could probably guess...but I just don't want to type it. I don't want to see the words. It's not tragic, but it's sad none-the-less. If anyone else had been through it, which I'm sure several others have, then they know. Ok, hurts a bit now...you'll get over it. And I will, as long as it doesn't happen again. Because if it happens again, well then you can certainly expect another entry, only that one will much much much worse than this one.

but like I said, I feel a little better. So I am going to go write my paper and fall asleep at about...oh, I'd say dawn. So I'll be seein' ya~` night~~

March 29th, 2005

02:20 am
Here's to not being able to concentrate

Here's to procrastination

Here's to thinking of things I shouldn't be thinking about

Here's to being confused

Here's to no progress on so many levels
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confused

February 15th, 2005

07:16 pm - Mason Ambassadors
Wow~ SO I'm sitting here, incrdeibly bored! I'm at a MA chat that I signed up for. Little did I know that this night I would need to punch out 5 pages of my lit. paper. Damn it all! SO I'm sitting here and no students are joining the chatroom, everyone already knows Mason blows...lol. JK!!!!!! (or am i?)

V-day weekend was....ok. Why is was good....I GOT TO GO HOME! why is was great....I GOT TO SEE MY HUNNY! and well I also saw my ames :-) why is was very, very bad....got sick the day Mike took off and had to sleep in his bed all day :-( Not that I don't looove being in his bed, but not when I'm sick ;-)

WOwzers! School + HW + Work + M.A. = no sleep :-o I am definiely working off of pure caffine.

My springbreak is March 10-20th....anyone gunna be around??? Prob not! pleeeh...Mason has the weirdest break times, but that's ok. If anyone is home then I would totally go away with them. I'vew got some money saved up. If not then I'm heading freakin' south when summer starts and whoever wants can come with.

In fact maybe I'll swing west and go visit Bob, if you haven't heard lately my roomie has been having a love affair with Bob Barker in return she gets CDs (oooo). No, but seriously, I sooo want to go on the Price is Right before Bob is gone :-( I will be so sad when he isn't hosting anymore. I bet they'd cancel the show. We could all wear smithtown, or Nesconsett, or St. James Shirts and say "WE LOVE BOB"

ANYWHO~~~~I should get going...we'll talk more about Bob later...in the meantime...stay clean, keep showering~ tata
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Nutty
Current Music: MA voices (Crazy)

January 29th, 2005

12:32 am - Well it's been a while

Well I haven't written in quite a while, so I felt the need to type a bit...vent a bit...fill ya'll in a bit.

So I'm back at Mason for the second semester. It's been okay, but I miss home A LOT. Nothing is like the Island! I'm taking five classes, and they don't seem too hard, but they'll be a lot of reading, which can be tough on me (Slowest reader EVER). I had a great winter vacation, and I wrapped it up sweetly with a root canal :-). No, but in all seriousness, it was a fun break. I spent most of my time with my hunny, but also a lot of time coupling with Tim and Amy. BTW: Girls will always rule at cranium! ~~~~~~~~but now that I'm back at school I miss home a lot, and I miss Mike a lot. Not to say that school doesn't have it's wonderful perks, and by that I mean the best roomie in the world, Big T, and all my wonderful friends...Joe, Shan, Helen, Stephenopolis, Alysie, and Alex.

I just got a job at a mexican resturant called Carlos O' Kelleys...yea, it sounds a bit Irish, but it's not. I don't have a car here, so I have to take the bus, but Theresa was hired there too, so most nights we'll just go together :-) I hope I make a lot working there; I could certainly use the money.

Well I'm actually really tired, and I can't seem to think of more to write for now, so I'm gunna say goodnight.

love you Mike~miss you :-(

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lonely

December 15th, 2004

12:21 am - Please take the 3 minutes it takes and read this
TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE CHRISTMAS,
HE LIVED ALL ALONE,
IN A ONE BEDROOM HOUSE MADE OF
PLASTER AND STONE.

I HAD COME DOWN THE CHIMNEY
WITH PRESENTS TO GIVE,
AND TO SEE JUST WHO
IN THIS HOME DID LIVE.

I LOOKED ALL ABOUT,
A STRANGE SIGHT I DID SEE,
NO TINSEL, NO PRESENTS,
NOT EVEN A TREE.

NO STOCKING BY MANTLE,
JUST BOOTS FILLED WITH SAND,
ON THE WALL HUNG PICTURES
OF FAR DISTANT LANDS.

WITH MEDALS AND BADGES,
AWARDS OF ALL KINDS,
A SOBER THOUGHT
CAME THROUGH MY MIND.

FOR THIS HOUSE WAS DIFFERENT,
IT WAS DARK AND DREARY,
I FOUND THE HOME OF A SOLDIER,
ONCE I COULD SEE CLEARLY.

THE SOLDIER LAY SLEEPING,
SILENT, ALONE,
CURLED UP ON THE FLOOR
IN THIS ONE BEDROOM HOME.

THE FACE WAS SO GENTLE,
THE ROOM IN SUCH DISORDER,
NOT HOW I PICTURED
A UNITED STATES SOLDIER.

WAS THIS THE HERO
OF WHOM I'D JUST READ?
CURLED UP ON A PONCHO,
THE FLOOR FOR A BED?

I REALIZED THE FAMILIES
THAT I SAW THIS NIGHT,
OWED THEIR LIVES TO THESE SOLDIERS
WHO WERE WILLING TO FIGHT.

SOON ROUND THE WORLD,
THE CHILDREN WOULD PLAY,
AND GROWNUPS WOULD CELEBRATE
A BRIGHT CHRISTMAS DAY.

THEY ALL ENJOYED FREEDOM
EACH MONTH OF THE YEAR,
BECAUSE OF THE SOLDIERS,
LIKE THE ONE LYING HERE.

I COULDN'T HELP WONDER
HOW MANY LAY ALONE,
ON A COLD CHRISTMAS EVE
IN A LAND FAR FROM HOME.

THE VERY THOUGHT
BROUGHT A TEAR TO MY EYE,
I DROPPED TO MY KNEES
AND STARTED TO CRY.

THE SOLDIER AWAKENED
AND I HEARD A ROUGH VOICE,
"SANTA DON'T CRY,
THIS LIFE IS MY CHOICE;

I FIGHT FOR FREEDOM,
I DON'T ASK FOR MORE,
MY LIFE IS MY GOD,
MY COUNTRY, MY CORPS."

THE SOLDIER ROLLED OVER
AND DRIFTED TO SLEEP,
I COULDN'T CONTROL IT,
I CONTINUED TO WEEP.

I KEPT WATCH FOR HOURS,
SO SILENT AND STILL
AND WE BOTH SHIVERED
FROM THE COLD NIGHT'S CHILL.

I DIDN'T WANT TO LEAVE
ON THAT COLD, DARK, NIGHT,
THIS GUARDIAN OF HONOR
SO WILLING TO FIGHT.

THEN THE SOLDIER ROLLED OVER,
WITH A VOICE SOFT AND PURE,
WHISPERED, "CARRY ON SANTA,
IT'S CHRISTMAS DAY, ALL IS SECURE."

ONE LOOK AT MY WATCH,
AND I KNEW HE WAS RIGHT.
"MERRY CHRISTMAS MY FRIEND,
AND TO ALL A GOOD NIGHT."

This poem was written by a Marine. The following is his request. I think it
is reasonable.....
PLEASE. Would you do me the kind favor of sending this to as many people as
you can? Christmas will be coming soon and some credit is due to our U.S.
service men and women for our being able to celebrate these
festivities.Let's try in this small way to pay a tiny bit of what we
owe. Make people stop and think of our heroes, living and dead, who
sacrificed themselves for us. Please, do your small part to plant this small
seed.

December 11th, 2004

02:17 am - :-)
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November 13th, 2004

05:10 am - Just to take up some time
ok- so it's 5 am, and, of course, I'm up and can't sleep. I went out tonight with my fav. party gal, Lysie!! and Mattykins :-) It was a pretty good night. I got in at about 2:30 ish. Now I'm up and watching 'Ever After' b/c it's a wonderful movie and b/c I'm bored :-(
At 9:30 (as in 4 or so hours from now) I have to do a campus tour (ick).

I am soooo hungary right now, but all we have in our fridge is a bottle of chocolate syrup. THAT'S IT! But, I do have a TON of candy, thanx to my sweetheart :-). He sent me a package with a heart pillow, a cute bear that said "I miss you", and tons of candy :-) all my favorites too. Certainly made me smile. But I don't want candy right now. I want a meal. Like chicken or steak with curly fries and pickles and salad with balsamic vinaigrette and a bologna sandwich and popcorn chicken and a hamburger and a strawberry shake and more pickles and well after all that maybe I'd bust into the candy for dessert.

THANKSGIVING BREAK IS ALMOST HERE!!!!!!!!! I can't wait. I want to have a party. Everyone can come over to my house, I think we'd have fun. Just being able to see everyone again. :-) We could do tons of stuff...foosball, poker, some drinking, I could open the hot tub....it could work :-) Speaking of Thanksgiving~ hopefully Mike will join us, but my family is going to my Aunt Ellen's, and she makes the BEST food. I simply can't wait...esp. since I've had only college food for the past few months.

Sometimes I stop and think about it, and most of you are still in NY or at least New Jersey, but I'm in Virginia. Freakin' Virgina...I'm so far away. It really makes me miss everyone so much. My buds back home will always be the best. You guys are my number one!

UH OH~~ Ever After just ended...WHAT WILL I DO WITH MY LIFE????
actually I think I'll 'peace out' ( in the words of my sleeping roomie)
Can't wait to see you all~ Love you guys~
~~~Sa

ps~I want a pickle :-/
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November 4th, 2004

12:27 am - I thought you were supposed to find yourself in college....
I have recently returned from being home for a week due to unfortunate circumstances. :-( My grandmother passed away two sundays ago. I cannot express how upset I was. She had been living with us since June, which only made it harder when we lost her. Now that I'm back at school I haven't been trying as hard. I just haven't been feeling too good lately. I feel like I'm at the wrong college. I want to transfer, but I don't know where, and even if I did transfer, would I be making a mistake? I can't help but feel that no matter which road I take it'll be wrong. And I know that in life there is no real "wrong way", but i dunno. Everything's been so confusing lately. And in being so confused I'm having trouble just dealing with everything.

I came home just in time to miss all the halloween parties down here, which I was bummed about. I had figured I could just drink the night away and forget my worries for a while, but no.

I'm sorry for those of you reading if I have brought you down. That's obviously not my intention. ugh~ it's just that I'm screaming inside.
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October 16th, 2004

09:20 pm

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JMU girls are pretty,William & Mary girls are smart,but it takes a George Mason girl to win a guy's heart.VCU girls cant dance,Richmond girls cant flow,and when you want the best looking girl,George Mason is where to go.ODU girls are wild,Tech girls are fun,but when it comes to partying,George Mason girls are # one.Girls willbe girls north, south, east & west,but a George Mason girl will always rate the best.So any guy who reads this and truly has to know,if you have a George Mason girl you should never let her go.

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September 20th, 2004

09:02 pm - Spin on a chair~ "everyone should do that"
Well I'm sitting here, procrastinating writing my 5-page paper....Theresa "buttface" just deleted everything, so now I'm re-writing it all. I'll begin by saying she's getting it on right now and I'm in the room and that sux! hahah~~~~ j/k

FOR REAL~~~this past weekend I went to visit ( SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP!!!!!) my home. I left thursday (Joe drove me...yay, TY!) I took the metro to amtrak and then the LIRR home. What a long F'ing trip. But once I was home I was sooo happy. Mike brought me yellow roses :-) Thank you my darling. Friday was just a laze about day, and Sat. I spent the whole day with Mike. It didn't go as well as I would have thought (I mean I still has a ton of fun with him), but that's only because of a certain soon to come visitor, which always throws me off~makes me go crazy. To be perfectly honest long distance relationship can be really hard. Not b/c I'm being thrown into temptation, but b/c I can't see Mike whenever I want anymore. I can only see him once a month and that really makes me mad. I feel like I'm living in two different universes. One is here at school, and the other is back at home. It's nuts...I like both lives. I just wish things were easier.

I am getting so distracted from this essay I'm supposed to write, mostly due to THERESA!!!!!!!!!!! STOP DISTRACTING ME!!!!! But plz don't think she's a "slut and a bitch" b/c she's not...she's the most bajiggity person EVER!!!!

I should go.....other wise my head's person will blow up
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jubilant
Current Music: Don't get up in my grill~SS featuring TK

September 1st, 2004

11:06 am - I heart college
Hey~

so I'm all moved in at GMU, and I was really nervous about coming here and wanted to just stay home, but now that I'm here I love it. I've already made so many new friends and it's just soooooo good.

The plus side of living so far from home is that I'm free of all the stress at home...like my mother or damn curfew

The mega-down side is that I'm separted from my most favorite person in the world. I miss you, mike, a lot. I wish you were here with me :-( I love you so much~

Wed.~ headed down here at 8pm and stayed in a hotel
Thur.~moved in at 11am. Met my roomie, Theresa. Organized room and met Theresa's friends, Joe, Lindsay, and Madison, who also go here.
Friday~ Got up early with roomie and went to the gym :-) Met Theresa's other friend, Shannon and her roomie, Alyse. We all went out with Joe's roommates that night to Walmart and Wendy's, then went to a Frat. party, where I met my other close friend, Matt.
Sat~got up early again and went to the gym. Hung out with Theresa and Shannon for the rest of the day. Watched "Singing in the rain" :-)
Sun~ Slept the entire day!! haha~ maybe I got up to eat, but that was about it.
Mon.~first day of classes, and my baby's B-day! Happy 22nd, hun!!!!!
Tues.~More classes, ICK. went to some dude's townhouse and just chilled...drank a lil, played darts, and some card games. It was a pretty good night.

Well I'm watching the Price is Right, which Rox! so I'm gunna go~ hope everyone else is having a great time where ever they are. Good luck to all who are starting new classes! I love Mike!!!!

~later~
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happy
Current Music: Price is Right music :-)

August 23rd, 2004

12:47 am - Hey Ya'll
Ok, it's the home stretch. 3 DAYS LEFT! Tomorrow is monday and I'd love to go the the nail place and treat myself to something special. Anyone want to come? If you do then gimme a call tomorrow and we'll do it. Tomorrow night is Mike's play-off games. Yeah! I love to watch him play; I really do. Watching guys in sports, well...it's hot.

Ya know....I was so ready to write something just now, but I forgot what I was going to say. Gee, that's so NOT like me. ::hehe::

so I guess I'll leave it with that. So call me if you want to get a a man./ped. tomorrow. :-) I think I'll also do some shopping too.

g'night all~
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loved
Current Music: shhhhhh

August 19th, 2004

06:17 pm - The world is a vampire
so today I woke up conviently at 11 since, of course, I had a 10 am appt. at the dentist. So, like a good grl I ignored calling the office up and, instead, drove out to my boyfriend's house and well....

anywho~ I'm home now and I'm BORED! I've been trying to arrange all my college stuff, but it's so stressful. In a way I kind of can't wait to unpack all my stuff down there and get cozy. But on the other hand I'm really nervous about leaving. There are some people who I just can't stand saying good-bye to. :-( But I'll be sure to stay in touch. And I'm going to be home a lot too. At least once a month, and I know certain people are going to get up off their asses and come visit me :-) I can show them how to rock it in VA.

Well I had the sudden urge to write a small blurb, but now I'm satisfied, so I'm going to continue with my college stuff. :-) ttyl~
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mellow

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August 18th, 2004

10:45 am - One week from now....
So it has finally hit that last week point. I leave in exactly 7 days. :-( but then again, I haven't a clue as to what's in store for me, and I may just love it. I guess I'll have to find out first hand. For now I'll try to enjoy my time left here and be with the ones I love.

I woke up this morning to meet with a Mary K Rep. at 9. I figured I should pick up some stuff b4 i go away. Ya know? Just some basics. Later on today I have my last day of work at Hallmark from 3-9. It may very well be the last time ever, but I'm still not sure yet. I really wanna bust into the waitressing world since I'm seeing how much they're freaking making. And I'm going to need a lot of money. Mason isn't cheap by any means.

The past few days have been wonderful except for the growing pit in my stomach from all the stress. I'm starting to get really nervous, but if I just keep talking about it and not holding it in then I should be fine. Obviously I've spent the past few days with Mike<3
And last night was a lot of fun. We went out with Amy and Tim and tragically lost by one stroke at a strenuous round of mini golf. But the night was ended early due to my damn curfew. :-(

Well I suppose that's all for now~

Good Luck to everyone heading off to college!!! Good Luck and have the best time!!!!! :-)

And to that special someone~~~Ich liebe dich :-)
~Your lil school grl
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hopeful

July 25th, 2004

12:19 pm - Hey Ya'll!!!!!

ooooooooooooooooooooooooooook

so it's Sunday morning and my mom kicked me out of bed to make her french toast, which I did, and now......no mom. Where is she? I don't know. But now her toast is getting cold, and I think I ruined our best spatula, but that's a whole other story.

Interesting few days at work...huh huh? Lindsay knows all about it. So don't Alannah. Fun episodes like the one featuring the wiggle dance (all the rage) and music like "First time I saw Jesus" and "DOooooooooown by the hills". But the def. best was Jelly Beans....lots and lots of jelly beans.

WAIT! Correction! The def. best was me...flashing some innocent woman...completely on accident. Now that...was funny. Explanation~I think not

Last night was Ca's party.....(We interrupt this regularly scheduled writing to announce that Sara's mom has just walked in the door and we're waiting to find out what happens)...it was lots of fun. Cept for that brief period when I was being WAAAAAAy to paranoid. Mike came and everyone liked him.

Speaking of Mike~tonight's our loooong night. Dinner and a movie and then I'm not sure after that, but I'm really looking forward to it. :-) We decided that the 8th was our day since we didn't really have "an official one".

........(Mom is pleased with the job done and the dishes washed....happy b/c she hasn't found the spatula yet.)..........

well I've gotta go.....happy times to all

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happy

July 20th, 2004

01:34 am - Writing due to popular demand
Well really it's just one person making me write, but since he's so special I'll do it just for him.

Let me start from the beginning so you all know how it all went down......

Maybe around the 7th or 8th I went over amy's to go in the pool with her and kristen. We were just chillin' and swinging on the tire swing (cept Kris since she was all burnt) when Tim, amy's bf, showed up with two friends. We all hung out for the rest of the night. Let's just say by the end of the night I'd gotta to know a wonderful guy named Mike and from the start we just kind of hit it off. So we ended up going on a double with amy and tim and, excluding the two days of orientation, I haven't not seen him for a single day since. And our earliest that we part is like 2 am each night. So now I'm going out with him and he's wonderful and things are wonderful and I'm veeeeeeeery happy. :-) !!!!!!! I've also gotten to meet all his friends, the Townies. Quite an interesting group; incredibly hilarious. They like to shoot off potatoes apparently. ;-) Well now you know who Mike is and I'm sure he'll be continuously mentioned since he likes to make me update.

Anyway~Besides meeting Mike the only other big thing is college coming up. At orientation I had a major awakening, and now I'm completely freaked out. It really sunk in that HS is over and I'm going to be 6 hours away in VA! I'll be honest I cried my way through orientation. The whole ordeal was frightening and unpleasant. If it wasn't for an orientation leader, who was from NY and told me she'd felt the same way, I'd be transferring now. But to try and stay optimistic I think it'll turn out okay once I'm settled in my dorm.

I think that's all for now~ Is that a good enough update for you, Mike? :-)

Since I wrote for you, you should comment for me....just click the comments button on the bottom, check off the anon. circle, write something, and write your name. That would make me happy. :-)

G'night all!

PS~ METS RULE!!!!!!!! ~most of the time
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cheerful
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July 7th, 2004

12:21 pm - Just so ya know
hmmm...I had the urge to write, which is very rare for me. Let's see what's changed since last time I wrote.

Well Prom was sooooooo much fun. I had fun dancing on that table in front (lol). After prom was fun too, and so was the after after prom in the city, YEAH! Went to a comedy club, HILARIOUS, then partied up in the room. Even the trip to and from the city was quite interesting :-) "Three fingers" ~Tim's a charmer

Graduation was fun.......really fast. It was over before I knew it. Alex's speech was wonderful. I was so happy he spoke, and that he mentioned the Mets several times. (I won't go into the Mets just yet) ANd then Amy's afterward. I was amy's cousin, Megan's "homie". HAHA~ but then the girl didn't want to let me leave her for a second. And I'll never forget naked Christopher! SO CUTE! and btw~I am going to marry Jake.

let's see, what else?

~Chris and I broke up on the first
~My brother left for Italy on the first (gone for a month)
~Had a pleasant/yet not so pleasant event happen on the second.
~Kris's Grad. party was a lot of fun. Stayed up till 3 with Chris C. and looked at very interesting pictures.

My parents left for lake Ontario Monday morning at 5am. I've been taking care of my g-ma since and haven't been able to go out much, but Amers has kept me entertained. Monday Tim Steve and she came over and played Fussball, Cranium, and did some hot tubbing. Last night we went out for late, late night dinner at Applebees~It was fun.

I've got to get to the beach soon b4 I die. I can't stand being soooo white. Hopefully friday we'll get out there. Well I've written quite a lot. This should do for a few weeks ;-)

"10, 9, 8, 6"
"6? Where's 7, you forgot about 7"
"Just kidding. 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1...Have a nice day"
"Thank-you"
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